IT A LONG STORY !

fahami dan nikmatilah ;)

assalamualaikum , soryy guys coz dah terlalu lalu lalu lama takk update ini blogg . sbnarnya aku dah mals nk update blog niee , sbb malas nk type panjang berlebar lebar . so story aku kali niee memang banyak sbb bercampur . semua cerita aku nk luahkan aku masukkn , senang sikit :) tapi aku tatau nk cerita mana dulu . hmmm , ok let begin with PMR first . lagi 6 hari result pmr akn keluar , boleh sape sape tolong aku ambilkn takk ? aku takk snggup nk tgk result aku , harap sgt takk teruk . amin !dah aku mls nk ckp bnyk psl nie , kang tak tido aku cuakkk pikir pasal result . second about my lovely FRIEND, serious aku rindu dyorg sgt sgt. lepas school holiday lama takk jmpa , hnya jmpa jieha and faizah jeaa , yg lain takk kesampaian . imiss all the time that we share together , have fun together , laugh together . rindu nk gadoh ramai ramai ,gelak takk ingt duniaa , bergosip . rindu jugak ayam goreng makcik kantin yg sedappp tuu ^^ last day sblm school holiday tuu aku takk dpt mkn ayam goreng maksik sbb braces punya pasal :( mengidam nieee ! but for me friend are everything . boys come and go but friend forever ! wlau mcm mn skalipon kawan lah org pertama yg akn kite carii . swear i miss all of you guyss :* aku turut tumpang gembira bile dpt tahu yg kawan aku gembira dgn org yg dyorg syg walupon i wasn't know anything :D as long as they happy with their life , it enough for me , i always hope there are my friend where always there for me in anytime , i always hope i was his only bestfriend , but i just cant. how could i hope all this thing but i;m not just a friend like that ? aku mengharap mcm mcm tapi aku sndri selalu takkde bile kwn aku susah , aku sndri tak tolong bile dyorg perlu . so i think it better for me to forget all this hope selagi sikap aku sndri takk berubah right ? klau aku takk boleh ada untuk kawan semasa susah kenapa kawan nk ada untuk aku waktu aku susah kann ? mybe that the fact of my true life . i just have to accept it . ok better stop here. thirdly about HIM ! pejam celik pejam celik has been 4 month i've been with him . takk sangka begitu cepat masa berlalu , dlm perhubngan nie terlalu bnyk mslh yg menimpa kiteorg . honestly yes , he is such a nice and kind guy . a lovely and sweety guy , and i know that he love me ;) but sometimes aku ase aku bukan untuk diaa .ase mcm terlalu bnyk bnda nie korban tuk aku , certain people says that i'm lucky to have him ! yesss memang aku bertuah sgt dapat memiliki dia , sometimes aku rasa dunia terlalu indah untuk dinikmati bersama , tapi sometimes aku rasa dunia terlalu sukar untuk diharungi . but i know that i all just a dugaan from god to us . terimanya dengan seadaanya . no matter what happen to us , i just want you to know that i'm happy beinging with you all this time . thanks for those meaningfull moment that you have kept for me . the name of AHMAD SYAZWAN will never loss in my mind <3 even do our relationship is over. i know you will think i am such a hipockrit girl right ? dulu beria ria cakap syg smpai bile bile lahh , takmau pisah lahh , takk snggp khlangan lahh . right ? just honest to yourself dear , don't ever you lie to your heart coz it will make youself suffering .i'm really really sory , sory i've forgot about all this thing i have says to you but it just not our jodoh mybe :/ coz kite pon tatau smpai mn hbngn kite akan kekal kan ? jodoh bukan ditangan kite . so ANDAIKAN suatu hari nnti kite berpisah , i'm just want to apologise a million of time to you . sory for all the promise that i have been mungkiri . if this really hope to us i hope you will not blame yourself . terima lahh nie sbgai dugaan hidup kite k . but it not mean that your realtionship over we cannot be a friend ? i just don't want to lose touch with you (: masih panjang lagi hidp kite kena hadapi , masih agy banyak bnda penting selain this relationship . hbngan zaman sekolah is just peneman hidup rasa seseorg bergelar remaja . ianya lumrah hidup seseorg rasa ingin disayangi dibelai tapi ianya takk semestinya kekal buat selamanya . hope you understand it . but all i can say now thanks you once again for this special moment :)



 ` 15.12.2011
` friday morning
` 04.30 a.m